Dead at 25

We will have our company's annual physical exam, and yes, i am a bit nervous. Not because of the needles nor the dentist but because I know that I am sick. Sick and tired of my life that i continue to live without a definite path to take.

A functioning alcoholic and a chain smoker, I can feel my lungs and liver getting smaller each day. In addition to lower back pains, probably a symptom of a kidney disease. Well who cares, really who?

Since I was sixteen or probably younger, I already have this feeling that i'd be dead by 25. This year's my 25th year and that if I reach 26, i don't care how much it would cost but there will be celebration, the grandest ever to celebrate my reincarnation.